Please don’t judge me haha
I’m dying to become a better person.
Either I’m not trying too hard or people are really just bad people to me, because I don’t see any improvement in my attitude.
Back then I had a mix of personalities. Sometimes I’m nice, sometimes not so much. Sometimes I’m super friendly, other times I’m anti social. Sometimes I give a damn and other times I don’t.
I got used to my bipolar attitude through the years and people got used to it too.
However, I’ve been noticing a change. I’ve developed negative traits. This is where it gets very personal…
I’m getting pissed easily. I get so pissed that I say things I know I will regret later, yet I still say them. I know it would hurt the other person, but this devil comes over me and I lose control of myself. I surprise myself.
Hopefully people reading this post don’t get scared of pissing me off haha. I hope they see the positivity that I will try to find in me and bring out to the world. I want to be a better person. I want to be someone people would be happy to be with. I just want respect for being a person of good morals.
Okay, I have to admit that the transition of being generally better may take a while. I guess I’m in no rush to completely change myself, but I’m aware that I need to act now or I probably never will.
Yeah I know my attitude may or may not be any of your business. Well so are a lot of things on my blog So yeah you can completely disregard this post (if you’ve even reached this far), I just needed this venting machine right now.